What kind of mother frakker tells you he is having a birthday dinner with friends and then DOES NOT INVITE YOU. And you sit there quietly, nodding and laughing, and agree to have dinner with him. This is now beyond the point of talking it out, this is kind of ridiculous. You really do have to come to a point where you realize - this is not what you deserve. This is not what I deserve. I deserve a guy who will invite me to his frakkin birthday dinner and introduce me to his friends and take me to parties and generally treat me like someone he would like to call his girlfriend. What, he isn't proud to show me off? He's afraid of turning this into something serious even though I told him that's what I wanted and by continuing to call me he's basically agreeing?? Need to calm down and go to sleep.

Why did I agree to see him tomorrow?